The rekindling has two aspects. One: to start having fun again, which I’ve totally forgotten how to do in the last couple of very stressful years. Two: To become an independent game developer and create a positive passive income business that will pay me comfortably without being forced back into the 60 hour/week rat race I currently run in.

The Having Fun part seems easy enough, but it’s even easier to fall into the daily trap of work/exist, and you forget. I used to have fun almost with everything, and laughed often. Now, When I do laugh, people exclaim that it is so rare. That’s gotta get fixed, and I am doing so. I recently watched a most remarkable National Geographic film titled “Stress, a Killer of the Mind.” We get so used to being chronically stressed all the time, that it is literally killing us. After talking with some co-workers about it, we decide, rightly, that if the lion isn’t about to eat us, it’s not worth stressing over.

So, the lion is not about to eat me. I’m not going to worry about all those things that won’t kill me. You can use analogies to this, saying that “losing my job” would be the same as “the lion ate me” or getting involved in a car accident, etc. But 90% of our self-induced stress comes from within, and I’ve caught myself many times Sweating the Small Stuff to the point of physical illness.

Not anymore. While I still care about things, I am resolved to keep them in their place.

The Indie Game Developer part I’ve dabbled with on and off for some time now. It’s not just the idea(s) that you have, it’s the implementation of them that has stopped me, and many others, from fulfilling their dreams of working independence. I tried to get into the Apple Dev program for the iPhone, and did so, but with too many personal issues over the last few years, that opportunity has been somewhat squandered and I lost my focus. Not anymore. I’ve resolved again to get focused on what I want and where I want to be, and I’m laying out a new plan to get there. And I will.

Just about everything I’ve ever really wanted to do, I have done, though not always on the planned schedule. It’s time for a new schedule, and a focus on getting there.

Thanks for reading.

I’m famous! At least as famous as any airplane holder/co-pilot can be…

Death’s silent scream
of cicadas
litter the loam
and the birds’ feast

new Life awaits
hidden away
Summer’s love
Death anew

phil huffstatler
july 22,2009

Post Script:
It makes me sad
and I know why
I can only as they;

live my life
then die.

If you can’t read English, then try the Google Translater…

Have a great day!